Something I don't want to forget

OJ does the cutest new thing where she snuggles into bed and pulls the covers up over her and says "go seep" to everyone.

More Miscellaneous Ramblings...

Well, it is 7:39am and I am up, showered, and dressed, that is making me feel relatively accomplished already..I assumed it was more along the lines of 8:30 when I walked downstairs after my shower.  My house is still a disaster after the wood floors, I am still sleeping on my mattress on the floor of my bedroom with just a lamp, no clock, no nothing.  My bathroom still has everything that we couldn't fit into Taylor's room in it.  On a really happy note, my new bedroom furniture arrives on Tuesday and my mom arrives Tuesday night.

I went over to my neighbors house the other day to give her the $20 I owe her for her daughters fundraiser and she invited me in and we chatted for a while.  What I noticed is that this woman has 5 kids ranging from 20 to 8 and her house was IMMACULATE...there was not a toy in sight nothing.  I was like wow do I feel incredibly inadequate. My house always seems to be in disaster mode, I am thinking that the sunroom needs to become the playroom so that I can at least consolidate toys into just one room downstairs.

Do you ever feel like your too young to have a house and all the responsibilities that go with it?  I was talking to Taylor about it the other day, I shouldn't have to think about getting hardwood floors redone and things of that nature...lol.  I love that we have this nice home but sometimes the things I have to do hit me in a weird way and its just strange...I am sure that sounded like a crazy rambling but hopefully someone gets it.

I need to decorate this house..many of the rooms are left undecorated and its starting to annoy me now that I am more focused on it.  I don't have a ton to budget for decorating but I suppose I will take it one day at a time and go from there.  I feel like this house is always in construction mode and maybe thats whats holding me back?  Maybe you guys can help me out, I will post a picture of a location that needs something and you can give me ideas.

Preschools..wow what an eye opener that has been.  I picked a place that I KNEW that I would love, had my heart set on her going there and we went and visited (checkbook in hand) and bam..I hated it.  I was so let down and deflated.  I knew in my heart that as much as I wanted OJ to go to school in Princeton that I couldn't send her there.  It was depressing to say the least.  I have found another preschool in the area (not Princeton) that looks a lot more along the lines of what I am looking for, cheery colors on the walls, children's artwork..etc.  We shall see..I am still bummed about Princeton.

Well, I have rambled enough..thanks if you made it this far. lol

New Floors..not really just rehabbing the old ones!

So I was excited to find a company that used water based products to refinish wood floors and they are certified green.  Well they came today and man what a pain in the ass, we had to have all furniture out of the rooms that they were doing and well almost our entire home needs it done but we are doing it piece by piece to make it more manageable.  Well we split the upstairs into halves and did our master and the hallway and kyles room so OJ couldn't go up for a nap, nothing it was nuts.  Anyway now after looking at just how much nicer they look I am happy we are going through the temporary pain to get it done.

Here is my newly painted master..love this color we put on the walls too...

Here is a split of where they stopped the new and left the old..yellowed polyurethane floors...ick.

 

And here is what I worked on while OJ was watching her dvd's because well...the 60 inch tv died today as well...yay..that means I get a smaller flat screen

Worst smell in the world so far...

My self cleaning oven cleaning itself and our hardwood floors being sanded at the same time...omg what hell.  LOL

Wow, what a week...

God did that suck ass...I mean really...shit.

 A health update for me, minus a few "episodes" last week I am feeling good, I haven't had any more bouts of just laying on the sofa.  I think 2.5 weeks in Florida definitely helped and anytime I start feeling my "gad" coming on I just either close my eyes for a few minutes or just push through it.  Nothing like before thankfully..seriously thankfully...

I have some more additions to the Florida culture series to add, I just have to get the pictures off my phone and on here.

I will update more later when i have more interesting information!  LOL

Another sad day...

The world has lost another great man...Please pray for my friend Sarah and her family at this time and also please pray for her dad's soul.  Robert, we wish you the best journey and peace.

To my dad...

It feels like forever since that day that you said I love you too but its only been 2 years and 5 days.  It is hard for me to remember your voice, I really wish I had saved a voice mail so I could reference it.  I am headed to church to light some candles and Karl will be lighting some candles at St. Patricks for you, I know you loved it there obviously they will be by St. Anthony.

I am heartbroken that you don't get to hear and see all of the things that Olivia is doing, shes really quite funny and entertaining and you would be absolutely smitten with her.  I am heartbroken that she won't remember you holding her and loving her.  I am heartbroken that you will never hear her say grandpa.  I am heartbroken that I will never be able to give you a hug again.

I can't believe its here again, you left me 2 years ago dad and my life has never caught up with that change.  Every day I think of you and wish you were here.  You were my best friend and that position has yet to be filled in my life.  There were so many times that I wished so hard that I honestly thought if i could change things you would come back...it was apparently such strong hope and desire that I was in this horrible circle of hope and let down.

You were a funny man and way under appreciated.  You were someone that I could laugh with and drink with and generally have a good time with.  Its just like I told you 2 years ago last night, if I had the chance to pick any dad in the world I would pick you over again, you are my dad and there's no one else who could have fit in your shoes (well, I eventually did but you had little feet).

Well a mess of tears later I just miss you terribly, its so hard. 

Unimpressed with my husband right now....

I am just completely unimpressed with him at this very point in time..he is a jackass and it annoys me to no end.