It feels like forever since that day that you said I love you too but its only been 2 years and 5 days. It is hard for me to remember your voice, I really wish I had saved a voice mail so I could reference it. I am headed to church to light some candles and Karl will be lighting some candles at St. Patricks for you, I know you loved it there obviously they will be by St. Anthony.
I am heartbroken that you don't get to hear and see all of the things that Olivia is doing, shes really quite funny and entertaining and you would be absolutely smitten with her. I am heartbroken that she won't remember you holding her and loving her. I am heartbroken that you will never hear her say grandpa. I am heartbroken that I will never be able to give you a hug again.
I can't believe its here again, you left me 2 years ago dad and my life has never caught up with that change. Every day I think of you and wish you were here. You were my best friend and that position has yet to be filled in my life. There were so many times that I wished so hard that I honestly thought if i could change things you would come back...it was apparently such strong hope and desire that I was in this horrible circle of hope and let down.
You were a funny man and way under appreciated. You were someone that I could laugh with and drink with and generally have a good time with. Its just like I told you 2 years ago last night, if I had the chance to pick any dad in the world I would pick you over again, you are my dad and there's no one else who could have fit in your shoes (well, I eventually did but you had little feet).
Well a mess of tears later I just miss you terribly, its so hard. 
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(((Steph)))
(((Hugs))) I know how hard your fathers loss has been on you and I know he is watching over you and Olivia and is very proud of both of you. Hang tight to all those memories and we are all here for you.
Thinking about you guys this week.
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