MRI of my brain...and other miscellaneous ramblings

Wow did that suck, I had to get stuck in that tube with my Jasonesque facemask, thank god I am not claustrophobic.  I was mostly pissed that at the end they didn't allow me to take a peek at my brain, for Christs sake, ITS MINE and not to mention my extensive medical expertise...now I have to wait for some half assed radiologist to look at it and send a report to my doctor.

I know whats wrong with me and so all of these tests I have had done do help to alleviate some of my anxiety but I really need to go and have the detrol discussion..LOL..I have always wanted to walk in and say that to him but alas, I really do need to consider medication so I have been researching some of the possibilities - not detrol - hopefully I just get OK and move on from this bullshit. 

I feel alright today, Karl is home and I am hoping that has nothing to do with it and I can just get on with getting some help but also feel ok in the meantime as well..we shall see.  I am hopeful.

I have been talking to my brother again every day since last Saturday when I found out his crack ass cunt of a *wife* shacked up in some two bit motel with some guy who works at the local discount mart doing coke and having sex.  My poor brother ended up finding out this which I wont get into how but he went and sat outside the motel until they came out in the morning.  I love him dearly and somehow he has helped me to start feeling better I think, we used to talk every day on his way home from work and she didn't like it so it faded off..and while we kept in contact it wasn't always as consistent as I would have liked.  Anyway, I have to figure out how to help him afford a house so that he can live happily without her, I am considering even just sending him 150 a month to help out with expenses, I think thats as much as I can squeeze out of my cash only budget per month..lol  I will do what I can.  Maybe Karl will just write him a check..

Well, other than that there's not much to report, I will get back to this blogging thing and once again hopefully it will help me...I will update with the MRI results as soon as I get them.