There is no one in the world who I love as much as her. I love her more than anything or anyone, she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She is funny and never fails to make me laugh and shes incredibly smart, her determination and persistence are admirable.
Why then, do I allow myself to take her for granted? I need to step back and re-evaluate things around her. I need to do more with her, we read and play but do I really do all that I should? I could look at her all day but do I really appreciate her?
I think it boils down to the fact that I never (ever) get a break, I think this is where it all goes wrong, I am working 24/7 with her, no help most of the time. I will let her run around and play while I drink my coffee and look around the internet but why don't I just do that while she naps? Why can I not limit it to that? Because I need a break sometimes and I feel horrible about that.
3 comments:
I hear you ;) It's just not "in me" to be the happy mommy who cherishes every moment with the baby. Staying at home, I usually found myself in one of two states: bored to death playing with her, or feeling guilty if I let her play by herself. You're not alone, and it doesn't make you any less of a good mom.
Girly, you're one of the best moms I know. And I don't just say shit like that. I think that constantly hovering is crippling to a child. The best thing you can give her is a happy, well-rounded mama. She's just as lucky to have you. Believe it. PS - that picture is the sweetest thing. OMG.
You were YOU before you were mommy. Hang on to the you. Olivia will be a better person for it.
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