For as long as I live I will never ever ever forget this...

Setting: Me and OJ in the chair in her room, her laying in my arms

I cocked my head over to the side so i was looking straight at her and said I love you and she said I wooov ooo mama

I swear I have never heard anything sweeter.  I just don't get to hear her say I love you much because she still isn't talking a ton even though she has said it before and this time she added a mama at the end which was a first.  I love this kid SO much OMG.  I am so glad I went back and ordered the larger dollhouse.  LOL :o)

Starbucks Red Cups and Dollhouse woes...

So I can't explain how giddy I get when the red cups come out at Starbucks..don't ask me why, I just love them and am so sad to see them go in January.  It also means we are currently `17 days from the Christmas blend arrival.

OJ is getting a dollhouse for Christmas this year and we found the perfect one today at Pottery Barn Kids...unfortunately it is $700....boo to that.  So, I ordered a smaller one that they have for $200 and I just hope that she likes it.  The only thing that I have to get for it is a staircase, she likes making the peeps come down the stairs...lol.  As soon as the 700 dollar one goes on sale shes getting it, how many times are you a kid?  She needs it and if my husband wouldn't kill me she would be getting it now for Christmas.  The thing is amazing but at that price it comes with NOTHING...not even a little person...

I need a nap...

I am so lazy tired today...it is raining and generally yucky outside so its not surprising but I think I am going to go lay down before G&T arrive this evening for the fall beer tasting party we are having!

YAWN...

My heart aches..

There is a little boy Olivia's age who is fighting neuroblastoma and it is absolutely making my heart ache. It makes my heart ache for his parents and family who sit there watching him play all the while knowing what is happening in this little boys body and what might be. It makes my heart ache to know that this little boy may never know life or be around to live his own out. I am praying for a miracle, his lungs have to stay the same or get better this week in order to start the only possible treatment that is left in the arsenal but they don't know what is causing his lungs to have problems if its the cancer or pneumonia. This treatment is it, there is nothing else that they can do for him so please take the time to say a prayer, send positive thoughts, whatever you can muster to this little man and his family because they need it right now.

I keep waiting for updates from his mom online and I at the same time don't want to get another one. Last night when I put Olivia down to bed I held her and thanked God for a healthy child.

Already feeling better and a warning..

Well yesterday I went and had the hellish IUD mirena taken out of my body, this was such an easy way to not have to worry about birth control. Seemed great right? NO..

Two weeks after I had my precious baby I was in a size 6 again, not in my slim cut jeans but I was much skinnier than I am as I sit here writing this. I had the mirena placed and before I realized what the hell was going on, I had gained 20 lbs, I never felt quite right, depression set in, I have anxiety, there was no energy to be mustered up in my body, my marriage was not a happy place and a myriad of other strange things happening. So I had just assumed that this was all to do with the shitty year I had with my dad dying and all. I started therapy this year for my depression and anxiety issues and really do feel better about things but not quite *right*. Well fast forward to two months ago and I googled "mirena weight loss" and what the hell I didn't find. I was reading my story all over these pages from all of these women. I was amazed, I had never thought to put it together and so finally I made the decision to have it removed.

This morning I woke up and felt rested, something I haven't felt in forever no matter how much sleep I have had, I also hopped on the scale and I am down 2.5 lbs and I ate pizza yesterday..go figure! I have been literally unable to lose weight, no matter what I do, I can starve myself and not lose weight with that thing in me. Apparently thats just something that goes along with it. So we shall see, maybe my size 6's by Christmas? One can hope!

Anyways, I want to tell you all if you are experiencing any of these problems and you have this, don't take it lightly, you may be part of this 1% of people that have these side effects. Now I am waiting for the mirena crash, which happens about two weeks after you have it taken out (it takes that long for the synthetic hormones to leave your body), I am hoping that I just cruise through this but we shall see. I am just going to keep in mind how much better I am going to feel once this shit is out of my body!!

Here are some sites to check out if you have any of these issues:

HERE HERE and HERE