Olivia's Room....FINALLY!!!!!!

Well, today we start the road to OJ getting a room of her very own. This has been such a sore spot in my head with husband...

OJ is the only child that lives here full time and shes the only one without her own room, one of the others doesn't even utilize her room and instead sleeps on my couch each and every time she stays the night. Now, at this point I could care less about her sleeping on the couch but the fact that we had such opposition (by said husband) to move rooms around. There is some underlying guilt about his previous divorce and that is somehow manifesting itself by his absolute resistance to this. It has been such a source of contempt, and no one understood it, including "the others". So anyways, on to new chapters, we are now getting Kyle's room prepped to be painted and his furniture moved in.

My newest issue is that OJ has to now use a hand me down dresser because "someone" doesn't want to spend the money. Why is it that all his other children had rooms when they came home from the hospital and they were perfectly decorated and I can't have that with my one and only child? I deserve to be able to make her room a special place for her. I am so frustrated with this entire process, I am definitely happy that we are finally moving the rooms so thats win number 1 but I also want her to have a nice room thats not a mish mash of furniture.

OK, rant over...I just hate this shit...

Here are a couple of pictures that I snapped on our after dinner walk...

ELMO

So, I finally just gave in, I decided that shit, he makes her happy why would I keep her from something that she likes like that? It was a stupid thing and its not like Elmo is going to teach her to deal drugs or some shit.

So fuck it, shes now going to have elmo shit and videos if she so pleases...and I am not going to feel bad about it.

Miscellaneous Ramblings...

Well, my computer died..really died this time and its only 1.5 years old, the motherboard needs to be replaced. Luckily Arturo was of no help and they are sending someone along to fix it..hopefully soon.

Have you ever purchased something you had a long time ago and it brings back memories? Well, I got a cabbage patch kid for OJ yesterday and at first whif of that new CPK smell (basically just shove 15 pampers swaddlers up your nose and you'll get the drift) I was taken back to opening up my own new CPK's. I remember my mom telling me after I unwrapped them on Christmas morning how she had to fight other mom's for them to get them for me. I know that there were fights over them but somehow I can't imagine my mom as part of all that...oh well.

I will update with the picture of OJ's new CPK because I know you are all interested to see her. And here she is:

Love

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There is no one in the world who I love as much as her. I love her more than anything or anyone, she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She is funny and never fails to make me laugh and shes incredibly smart, her determination and persistence are admirable.

Why then, do I allow myself to take her for granted? I need to step back and re-evaluate things around her. I need to do more with her, we read and play but do I really do all that I should? I could look at her all day but do I really appreciate her?

I think it boils down to the fact that I never (ever) get a break, I think this is where it all goes wrong, I am working 24/7 with her, no help most of the time. I will let her run around and play while I drink my coffee and look around the internet but why don't I just do that while she naps? Why can I not limit it to that? Because I need a break sometimes and I feel horrible about that.

The Dawgs Room

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You can see where the dawg may not fit into the decor...




As you can see here there are some "leftovers" the marble top coffee table, the other "dawg", the bottle of wine that I purchased to drink for fathers day forgotten in its brown bag and the husbands papers.

Majestic DAWG

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Originally uploaded by OJFuzzyBottom

So, it looks like it could be fun to put things on the plant stand so I started with the ceramic dawg that my MIL gave us for Christmas such an anomaly in my home, it doesn't go with anything that I have....but hey, we can have some fun with it right??

Its fun when my MIL would find it in the corner so it was a little less conspicuous and then go oh the cleaning people must have moved it and she would move it right back next to the fireplace for all to see..I will post a picture of the room this lives in as well.

Leftovers

We all have them right? I have lots. I have leftovers all over the place.

I have leftover furniture from someone who has taste completely opposite to my own. I have leftover anger from my dads death. I have leftovers in the fridge that need to be thrown away.

What is it with leftovers? Mine drive me insane.

Aforementioned plant stand - I am seriously thinking of keeping it now to put shit on and take pictures..

I went back and finished this one....

Free Panties and Pack Rats

Why do I always forget to go get them? As I wade through this craptastic mess of paper that my dear husband loves to collect (read allow to sit around until I do something with it then yells at me for recycling it)..I find that I have missed yet another pair of free panties from victorias secret...I always forget to use those coupons. Next week I am sure that I will find that I need panties.....

So, how is it that I manage to find a ready made family of packrats? I am a die hard thrower awayer....I swear to god this fucking house is absolutely filled with shit we don't need yet husband thinks we should keep it all. I am starting to lose my mind with it all, I am going to start throwing it all away. This has been too long living in this, my basement is stacked full of shit that will never be used. I am pretty sure the plaster "roman" column plant stand from his "old house" won't be needed here...but I suppose you never know......

First one..lets get this out of the way

Well, I figured it was about time that I do one of these, people have been telling me that it *may* help my mental wellness to get this shit out.

There is a lot of shit to get out and things happen to me all the time so you may be slightly entertained or appalled - you can be the judge.

Also, a warning, I will use foul language here...freely